Dear Sweet Friends, last week when I didn't post I told you that I had been having a crazy, hectic week. That is not entirely true. The original post I had written (the "real" reason) was a gut wrenching "real" post, but after much thinking and worrying over the matter I decided I wouldn't post it . Over this weekend I have done some re-thinking and much praying and after further consideration I decided I should post it. Whenever possible I want to give hope to others who might feel hopeless and I want to be a source of encouragement whenver possible. I want to share how when you feel like you have no strength left, God is right there by your side to see you through. I also want to share with you the grace that God has bestowed upon me in my life, and also the power of love and forgiveness. Life isn't always pretty, families are never perfect, friends can let you down, and at time life can get downright ugly. The important thing to remember at these times is that we are never alone. We have a heavenly Father who loves us, who wants to comfort us, and he even carries us when we no longer feel like we can walk. It is because of this I want to share with you the original post:
First of all, thank you so much for your concern that you have shown through comments and emails over my absence. I know I am a pretty regular poster and so it is most unusual when I don't post. I have met so many wonderful friends through the blogging community and feel like we all share a special bond. We know each other's families, celebrate each other's joys, and say prayers and shed tears over each other's sorrows. This is why I wanted to share with you why I haven't been posting lately. As a very young girl I was the victim of repeated sexual abuse. Although physical scars can go away with time, emotional scars stay for a much longer time. Sometimes the body heals faster than the soul, and the emotional hurts that I suffered as a child unfortunately still plague me at times. Through much counseling and prayer I don't allow the abuse to define who I am, instead I choose to focus on the fact that I am a precious child of God. Although I would like to say I am completely "healed," I simply cannot. Every once and awhile I suffer the effects of the past. This is what I am going through right now. While struggling through this it takes all the energy I can muster just to go about and do my daily tasks. Through God's grace I don't have many "bouts' like this, and he always sees me through to the other side, where the sun is shining and the sky is blue again. So, dear friends, as I take this time to regain my strength I want you to know how much I miss you and how much I treasure all of your sweet friendships. When I am stronger I will return and continue to share my faith as well as my love of home and family.
My love to all,